time passed damn fast this year. the comp, the rod today, everything seems to be never coming even right at the start of the year. and tada. today was the real and final thing.

this also implys that its more and more focused on studies now. im scared. afraid of the way we need to study for the rest of the year. half a year passed. instead of getting better and better, my results are currently deteriorating. in fact, it seems to me, the harder i study, would only mean a greater disappointment ill get. im at a lost now.


ill promise to study. right when june hols start. so, stop forcing me now.